I woke up today feeling pretty good about the choices I made yesterday. I thought I'd have to get rid of every temptation in my cupboard, but come to find out... the cravings just weren't there. I'm certain it's because my motivation was high, and well of course it was my first day. I honestly didn't think I'd get through the day without some sort of "cheat" but I did, and for that I'm grateful! I'm also so grateful about my choice to post what's going on in my head as well as my kitchen during this process. I think knowing that people who care about me are going to follow me on this journey is enough to make me culpable for my choices...
Ok, I'll admit it... I had one bad time, it was at 10:00pm last night and I was too wide awake to go to bed, but at the same time my stomach was seriously rumbling and pulling me in the direction of the kitchen. After my third glass of water, I caved. What was my choice? Of all things, a hard boiled egg! Thank goodness I chose to make some towards the end of the week last week because it saved me last night. I know I shouldn't have eaten anything, but at that point I honestly felt hungry, which is something I am trying to take notice of. For so long I've eaten because I was anxious, upset or worse just plain bored but rarely because I was actually hungry. So now I'm trying to really consider why I'm eating first and how it makes me feel afterwards second. I'm not a saint, I have major issues with control and I think the one thing I've always had control over was my food. If I was upset, I could conquer that with comfort foods of saltines and butter, chips or ice cream. If I was anxious, eating something indulgent would calm me ~ pretty twisted huh?
So for now, I remember every day, it's all about choices... let's hope I make some good ones again today!
Breakfast:
2 egg omelet using chopped swiss chard from the garden and a little bit of feta cheese.
Snack:
1 TBSP Natural PB
Lunch:
Salad with some Canaloni beans, egg and feta cheese
Snack:
Dang, I forgot my snack :( (well more like I was out doing errands)
Dinner:
Grilled Pesto Chicken Breast with A Saute blend of shallots, roasted garlic, portabella mushrooms, yellow squash and green zucchini.
Dessert/Snack:
Sugar Free Raspberry Jello made with some 0 calorie sparkling water (kind neat how it still fizzes in your mouth)
P.S. I did something I said I wouldn't do and stepped on the scale this morning... I don't know if I can trust it because it's older than me, but it showed that I was down 3 lbs... could it be?
Tomorrow I'm thinking I'll make some Ancho Chili Lime BBQ Shrimp...
Good morning Jilly - Great start!!! I know numbers are the easiest gauge, but you might want to do measurements too as an added incentive...I'm just like you with food - it's my crutch and my joy...my late night snack was a granny smith apple! I also try to ensure I get at least 25g of fiber every day. I know you're active, but think about adding a little exercise, maybe light weights to add muscle and speed up your metabolism. But whatever you do, know we're all here cheering you on (and maybe joining you too...) Love ya!
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